爱情.. Relationship

Lately there is a lot of flesh back memories of the good and bad times..
Each flesh back remind me of the good and bad of him and me..
Suddenly just got this to write out.. Say it is meaningless is cheating you, cheating myself; to find a reason for it seem impossible..

"The type of relationship that I wanted is not the type that today say I Love You, tomorrow ends with I am Sorry.
I never believe that a relationship will end with Sorry because it takes two hand to form the heart shape just like it take two hand to clap.
If I would to be nicer, sweeter, less demanding in career; today I am be your wife already. Promises are made to keep or break, depend not only on you but also me.
This relationship left me with a scare that is 6 years deep to heals, now if you were to ask if I am ready to love again. I would say I did fall in love but just that he is just not meant to be mine. I love the wrong person again. But this part of life is sweeter then the memories that you left for me. If were to give me a chance again, will I still love you. The answer is yes but I will be more mature to let you fly earlier and let you free. Till today I still feel sorry that I once hurt you that hard that you got to leave me in wound to heal in the slow of six years.
You know who you are. You are the one that give me hope and left me with none. You are the forever pain deep down in the heart. You are the person that I want to forget for this life but never successful done it. But I am sure that I will not give up just like living each day with new hope"

Sometime I wonder if falling in love again is it the best medication to cure the pain. I never dare to try in fear to hurt the other party. I admit I am sad and down but I believe I will be fine after this blog because I write out again.

朋友们，你们会为我加油的对吗？我不是一个人在和这个心魔奋斗对吗？ 我相信我的朋友们是不会了让我一个人和心魔奋斗的。